Netherworld: The great reconciliation

I dreamt one morning that the darkness came…
Of the things of true night and never ending rain…

I dreamt one night of the eternal morn
Of the sunshine of God forgetting my scorn…

The damn pain
As I lose my control
The damn hurt
As I give in to my burn

Elated decision
Forgotten once more
To flog the prisoner
The candy assed whore.

Where does my help come from
My help comes from my death
Where’s God when I pay the pest
Where’s the face that shines on me
Bound by my sin never set free…

Where’s God when I want to die
Watching waiting and listening to me cry
Listening hearing when my muscles jerk
Hearing the cry when I lose my perk…

Where does my help come from?
My help comes from my death
Where’s God when I pay the pest
Here’s the face that shines on me
Ever more setting me free…

Elated decision
Forgotten no more
No peaceful sleep
Purifying the whore

The great joy
When I win the race
The great love
When I stand again to face

I dreamt one morning that the darkness came…
Of the things of true night and never ending rain…

I dreamt one night of the eternal morn
Of the sunshine of God forgetting my scorn…


just a note, I concieved a lot of this from CS Lewis' Great divource

To find things Lost

Forgotten, impoverished, and dusty
My soul it longs to hear
Forever, eternal, never
My heart is begs in fear

Elation, joy, and bright
Lost for years to come
Despair, pain, and death
Lost in history now numb

Happy…
There’s happy
Sad…
There’s sad

Living…
I suppose
Dead…
Never so bad

My search for the center begins at the edge
My God to dismember my heart with a sledge
Elation to enter, Despair as well
Love in the embers, and fires-- far from hell.